I Love Zain Hakimi...

Hahaha...title entry kali ni mcm suspen je... :p

Hmm..actually, like to share something with you all...but today my mood is zero..totally zero...
Bak kata org, mood dh paras hidung...

This is me...and it was real...my mood will totally zero if it was being disturbed in the early of the morning. No matter the disturbance come from my family, my friends or come from the others...i will totally not in mood at that day..dont get surprised if i'm not talking for the whole day...i'm a talkactive...so if i'm being silent it's means not good..
The morale is, please don't ever try spoling my mood in the beginning of the day...

Saya masih dlm proses utk melembutkan hati dan mengubah perangai yg degil..so sila bersabar sebentar dgn sikap saya...

Research proposal supposedly dh start chapter two, literature review...but i just need to submit chapter one by tomorrow..chapter one mgu lepas dh siap..it means LR jugak supposedly siap mgu ni..one week one chapter..but last week byk event...kenduri, besday party, and cter hindustan byk yg best...(adakah ini termasuk sebagai event?)

So esok, mmg dh tempah awal2 kalau Dr Hanim ( my advisor) marah...now, i'm a master student..x kanla nk kena ketuk baru nk buat kan? Dh tau, lagi mau tanya..huhuhu...perangai tak ubah2!!!

Syu, my bff...
Tonite she share something with me..hmm..syu jarang mengadu..selalunya saya yg duk potpet potpet bila WhatsApp dgn dia..now its her turn..and i just listen to her...kesian syusyu...okay, i'm not just listen, i give my opinion too...huhuhu...in the beginning, YES!!! i follow my mood, give her the 'devil opinion'..hahahaha! So bad of me...then, after i listen and keep listen...i put myself in her shoes..and i become the positive one..we can't control the other's act, attitude, behaviour..but we can control our's...its the best that we can do...

As a human, we just do the things that human can do..the things that we can't, let's Allah handle it..bcoz, Dia Maha Segalanya..

Okay, my mood is slowly return back rite now,,,dh tgh mlm bru mood nk dtg balik? Nk bercakap dgn sape sume orang pun dh tidoq! Hahahaha!
Alhamdulillah, i'm feel sleepy...eh! Baru ingt nk continue research proposal...alaaaa!!! Macamane ni, mata dah kuyu ni? (Alasan!! Alasan!!) kehkeh!...so, nite peeps...

-actually the only thing that make me laugh and smile for today is, ZAIN HAKIMI...why this guy is so handsome??kehkeh! Plan for something tomorrow...Live Chat with Zain Hakimi??? Heeee....-

Sedih, Gembira, Redha....

Macam lagu pulak tajuk entry kali ni...

This year, ramai kawan2 yg dah nak kawen, yg plan nk tunang and x kurang jugak yg dh nk tambah ahli keluarga baru...for me of coz la hepi! Kawan2 nk bertemu hari bahagia, kita tumpang seronok la...hehehe.."Selamat Berbahagia kawan-kawan!"...heee...

Cuma, kadang2 hati mcm sayu tiba2 and sekali sekala...am i deserve to have that feeling???
Bukan cemburu, cuma sayu and sebak mengenangkan apa yg pernah berlaku dikala kwn2 lain dh jmpa bahagia masing2...memories remain..., tipulah kalau boleh utk diri ni melupakan segalanya sekaligus...org ckp pengalaman pahit tu lebih selalu diingati berbanding perkara yg manis...

Sometimes i know my mom's feeling..she might be worried that i will choose to be alone forever...ntahla, bukan senang nk mncari teman pengganti.. Kalau cinta itu ibarat menukar baju, ia tetap sesuatu yg bukan mudah utk diuruskan...sebelum menukar baju, baju kena dipilih, kena pastikan ianya bersih, kena pastikan ianya sesuai dgn masa dan keadaan...dan ternyata cinta lebih sukar dari menukar baju..org slalu ckp, "pilih org yg syg kita lebih dr kita syg org tu"..tapi boleh ke utk terima seseorang tnpa rasa syg di dlm hati? Org sekeliling saya mngkin fikir saya masih teringat kan si dia, my first love...hakikatnya dia bukan lagi di hati saya..mana mungkin saya mengingati org yg membuang cinta saya semudahnya? Luka itu dh lama sembuh, tapi parut mengambil masa utk hilang..2 tahun terlalu awal utk melupakan semuanya...Realized i lost my heart to someone who doesn't care, and found it crying in the corner, it was totally hurt...BUT..

There's a say, " Don't ever lose yourself in attempt to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.."

Cinta di hati dh lama berganti, cuma utk kesekian kalinya saya dah bersedia, dia sememangnya bukan jodoh saya...In our life, there are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we cant't live without but have to let go... :)

They keep saying:

" this is the time for u to be happy..u need to show to him, that u deserve more happier life rather than be with him!"

" ada hikmah semua ni..mgkin lebih baik skarang drpd after dh kawen nti..jodoh yg ditentukn mgkin adalah yg terbaik dr yg sebelum ni.."

" kita merancang, Allah yg tentukan..walau sebanyak mana kita usaha, jika dia bukan yg ditentukan, dia tetap bukan jodoh kita..cuma mungkin cara yg digunakan oleh dia silap..tapi maafkanlah kerana mungkin itu yg terbaik utk semua..."

Thanks to all my frens yg ambil berat..mgkin mereka turut sedih ketika itu...selama 6 tahun berlakon di pentas yg sama, ternyata kesudahannya watak heroin menjadi milik org lain...

My prepared answers:

"Bercinta balik? Nantilah..."
"In Sha Allah, ada jodoh, adalah.."
" tunggu kwn2 (letak nama) kawen dulu"
" kerja xde, belajar pun x habis, camne nak kawen?"

Soalan berganti soalan berganti jawapan yg tak pernah habis...setiapkali ada berita kwn2 atau cousin yg dipinang org, wajah mak yg saya jeling...if i can, i want to tell her " please don't ever worry about me.. the important thing is i'm happy with my life rite now..it doesn't matter i'm getting married or not, i am so happy become your daughter in this world,.."

A heart break is kinda like a blessings from God. It's just His way of letting me realize that He saved me from the wrong one..Saya percaya pada janji Allah..Dia lebih mengerti apa yg saya perlukan..nescaya hanya Dia yg Maha Mengetahui...apalah sgt diuji dengan dugaan kasih sayang yg belum halal di sisinya berbanding nikmat kasih sayang dan persahabatan yg saya miliki dari keluarga dan sahabat..Dia tarik rasa cinta yg mungkin tidak pernah diredhai olehNya dan Alhamdulillah ujian itu membuatkan saya kmbali kepadaNya yg satu...

- solat yg x pernah terjaga
- mengaji Alquran hanya sekali sekala
- impian saya hanya utk bersamanya bukan mencari keredhaanNya
- saya sendiri tak pernah berdoa dipertemukan saya dgn jodoh yg telah ditentukan olehNya utk saya
- menyayanginya bukan kerana Allah...hanya utk memilikinya...

Saya mengakui kelemahan diri...Alhamdulillah...saya menyedarinya ketika diri masih dikurniakan fizikal dan mental yg sihat..masih sempat utk saya memperbaiki diri dan terus memperbaiki diri...terima kasih Ya Allah...

Ye!! Saya berhak sedih, kecewa dan marah ..kerana itu semua perasaan saya yg dikurniakan olehNya utk saya..namun saya perlu redha supaya saya lebih menghargai rasa tenang dan bahagia yg turut dihadiahkan olehNya kepada saya...

I just want to live a life without worries, where i can be me, without fear of being judged..I want to let go of the past, live the present and dream of the future. The smile on my face doesn't mean my life is so perfect, it's just the reflection of knowing IT WILL BE ONE DAY...In Sha Allah...

Doakan saya ye kawan-kawan...doakan saya istiqamah dalam menjdi hambaNya yg sentiasa redha...dan doakan saya utk jauh dari rasa kecewa...Amin...

....dalam kegelapan itu, terbit cahaya dariMu, memandu hambaMu menuju iman,
Menginsafi diri dengan ketaqwaan dan kesabaran,
Kau terangi jalanku menuju syurgaMu...dan Kau tuntuni dengan hidayahMu,
Hanyalah padaMu kuhadapkan diri, mohon keampunan...

Rai said; "Forget the past that made you cry, focus on the present thst completes your smile,
becoz Allah always knows everything best for u..."

-semoga istiqamah dalam mencari keredhaanNya-

Ayu's trademark word!! Heeee.... (^_^)

Hihihi...lately bila whassup dengan ayu, she has her own 'word' that begin her trademark until today..it was, "heee.."

We whassup everyday, of coz she is my bestfren..and lately our conversation must have that word...(heee) that ayu start to used it...kehkeh! And for me, the word means something to me.. Lalalala...
For me, "hee" means smile with showing all the teeth we have.  Dalam bahasa melayu ianya dipanggil sebagai tersengih macam kerang busuk..hahaha! Memula cam poyo gelak2 kat ayu sbb guna that "heee"...but nowadays i'm start to used it as my word too!!! Kami memanglah bestfren! Hahaha! So, everytime i use "heee" word it means i am smiling with show all my teeth to others!
Let's  Heee....

 

kUiH LapiS GeMOok....

Taraaa....the 3rd entry is about makan2, nyum2,...hehe..and the selected dish is kueh lapis...

Actually, i'm not the original one who baked this cake? Shouldn't i call it as a cake?? Hehehe..kueh lapis is one of the Malay traditional food. It has 2 layer and the most popular colours are pink and white! (Pink is one of my fav colour..ngeee). It's very tasty...u should try it first then u can't stop eating but dont ever tell me its so sweet...aNd its not so good for our health..damn it!  Kueh org melayu manada yg x maneh, sume pun maneh! Org melayu nyer pun ramai yg manis2...Ngeee...

For me, if u're very2 care about your health dont eat anything, dont ever live in this risky world..for me, health is more depend on us. ther'e's give and take..bila dh mkn, kenala minum air yg byk at least 3 litres perday jenuh tu nk hbskan 3 litres perday!! Smpai nk temuntah2 den but it was so worth!  Then u mest have ur own exercise, rajin2kan diri buat kerja anak dara..klu pg keja, parking keta tu jauh2 sket, xpun pg lunch park jauh2 sket...dptla exercise secara xlgsung kan? makan tu x leh, mkn ni x leh, tp tido spnjg masa, duk kat kerusi ofis dr dtg smpai balik, x bergerak..eh, jgn ckpla peluh leh menitik bila kita hadap kompute je kan? Heeee.. (Cakap ni pun based on my experience)? 

Wokeyh! Straight to my kueh lapis...sbnrnya i just half contributer in making this sweet cake...cake lagi? Hehe..ok2 kueh lapis..sbb the master of baking is my mak ngah! Mak ngah ni mmg suka buat kuih secara tetiba, so time dia nk buat ni i yg mengoffer diri nk tolong, penghabisnya anak murid dtg lambat! So enjoy your picture...resepi, nti2 bru update lagi..korang just telan jela air liur skejap ae..hihihi..

   

Sbb lmbt, step pun dh smpai sini...heee..ni after the first white layer already cooked then we need to put the pink layer on the white layer to be cooked again.....the next step is steamed....kukus bak kata org melayu....
After twenty minutes....taraaaa....

 This is the first time mak ngah doing such a cute shape..usually kuih lapis should be in rectangle or in the cube shape..so, we just try the new gemook design..wah! Sgt cute and sedaaaappppp..nyum nyum...!!

Salam Maulidur Rasul 1434H...

Salam Maulidur Rasul 1434H..
semoga sunnah Rasulullah SAW kekal menjadi ikutan setiap umatnya, tanda kita tidak pernah melupai dirinya..In Shaa Allah..

(Ya Rasulullah…)

Kau masih tersenyum mengubat lara
Selindung derita yang kau rasa
Senyuman yang mententeramkan
Setiap insan yang kebimbangan

Hakikatnya, tak tertanggung lagi derita
Di pangkuan isterimu Humaira?
Menunggu saat ketikanya
Di angkat rohmu bertemu Yang Esa

Tangan dicelup di bejana air
Kau sapu di muka mengurangkan pedih
Beralun zikir menutur kasih
Pada umat dan akhirat

Dan tibalah waktu ajal bertamu
Penuh ketenangan jiwamu berlalu
Linangan air mata syahdu
Iringi pemergianmu

Oh sukarnya untuk umat menerima
Bahkan payah untuk Umar mempercaya
Tetapi iman merelakan jua
Bahawa manusiakan mati akhirnya

Tak terlafaz kata mengungkap hiba
Gerhanalah seluruh semesta
Walaupun kau telah tiada
Bersemarak cintamu selamanya

Ya Rasulullah
Kau tinggalkan kami warisan yang abadi
Dan bersaksilah sesungguhnya
Kami merinduimu

Tajuk Nasyid : Pemergianmu
Artis : Inteam
Album : Tiada lagi kasih

this is very2 beautiful song...sebak sangat kalau dihayati lirik dan muziknya..rindu padamu Ya Rasulullah SAW..

Branded Vs Cute

Okay! This is my first entry ever...hehehe..dupdap plak la nk menulis balik..padahal xdela hits mane pun blog ni, ecececeh!! Okay, nk cte pasal smalam. yesterday i pergi melaka, and elok je smpai depan Tesco tgh tggu trafic light, guess what??? i forget to bring my purse..!!! xdela purse sgt kot..tp saya ttp menganggapnya sebagai purse saya..sbb segalanya ada kat situ;ic license, atm card, shopping card, duit dh tentu2la even xdela byk mane...heee .

Tetiba tgh bingung2 mencari penyelesaian tu, mak call! Rupa2nya mak tau dari adik..aiseyhman..ape lagi, kenala tahan telinga..antara topik yg mnjadi punca mak x berpuas hati; keadaan purse saya itu...so, nmpknya kenala beli purse lain. Before ni ada beli purse tp xsemangat nk guna, coz i dont like to bring my handbag when outing..and slalunya mmg purse pooh saya tu muat utk dimasukkan ke dlm poket jeans saya. So, no need handbag! Hehehe...i'm not the one yg xsuka handbag, i'm still typical ladies yg terpk nk handbag as brg hantaran..kehkeh..but sometimes i just want to be relax..go outing without hold things..hehehe., tp bila pk2 balik, kenAla jugak beli the new one...the alternative utk carik duit shopping mmgla my big bro..nasib baik dia keja kat Melaka..hehehe..but the mission to find the luggage, need to be changed. xkanla nk pinjam duit org sampai 5rat..Shopping punya shopping (pinjam duit my big bro) ternmpkla purse ni...hehehe..nk kata branded, xdenya..tp sbb dia strike and cute! Milk teddy and orange! And the price only RM 30. Murah je kan? so dr nk shopping luggage, jadilah shopping purse je..instead of that, as promised i bought casing for my new ipad..heee...the original one sbb beli kat Mac city..harga mestila dua kali ganda kan? ngee..
But i'm still survey for the luggage..kebetulan kuar2 lif je jusco tgh ada sales promotion discount about 50% for hush puppies brand..so from RM700 it become only RM 350..my focus is not the price actually but it was in PINK COLOUR...GADIS MERAH JAMBU...hihihi...tp nama pun cuma pnjam abg 300 hengget..dh beli casing, dh beli purse..so bye2 jela luggage tu...(padahal dalam hati dh semangat pk nk kecek mak time balik nnti. heee)

Ok, i'm not the branded one...x kisah brg tu branded atau x, janji dia cute i will grab it..the price is nothing...except klu harga mahal sgtla..heeeee...

Heeeee....so,tamatlah riwayat purse pooh pemberian nadia tu..lets change to the orange one!

But the blue one still consider as purse, rite? Heeee... :p

sTaNdiNg iN tHe EyeS oF tHe wORld...

I'm coming home..coming home...hye guys! Reading is the best part in our life since we know the very beautiful alphabet A-Z...and that's also became a reason why you are here viewing and reading my blog! I'm a talkactive but i'm freely to listen!! So, lets share our knowledge, experience, moments and thoughts..thanks for viewing and enjoy your reading!