Dear Teman, i want to tell you...

My Teman,

I want to tell you that although I have and will again care for people who aren’t you, I will care about you the most and I don’t want you to only live in my memories. I want you to be able to call me when you are sad, when you are having the worst day imaginable. I want you to be able to call me when someone hurts you. I want you to be able to call me when you are having the best day possible. I want to share in your triumphs and celebrate your victories.

I want to drive across the country and go to you, sit you down, draw you in closely and say all of this to you in person, but I can’t. I want to tell you all of this now because I don’t know if and when I will see your face again. I don’t know what happens next, and that has to be okay. I have to be okay. I have to be okay without you.

Most of all, I want to tell you not to worry about me. I will be okay. Someday I will be okay without you...

And until the day comes, lets appreciate the love that we have... :'(

I like you... :)

I had hoped that those thirty seconds of bravery would be the start of something – and I guess it was. The tension, albeit in my head, of knowing that I like you and wondering if you liked me still hangs in there air but at least we are not total strangers, at least that first “hello” has made way for possibilities. But I still hold on to the hope that somehow through fate or through a twist in fate, I’ll get to know something real about you. Maybe you’ll get to know something real about me too.

Perhaps it’s just human nature; perhaps this feeling is really just superficial and sooner or later it will pass. And even if it does, that’s okay – I am not looking too much into the future nor will I wait in vain. But as long as you’re around and this feeling stays, I’m going to indulge it, and I’m going to smile when I see you and I am going to keep liking you. And I’ll keep hoping that maybe, possibly, potentially, by some miracle I’ll tell you how much I like you and finally get to ask you: Do you like me too?

People comes and go...

Senang cerita macamnila...ye, dalam hidup ni, org dtg dan pergi tu benda yg biasa..tersangat biasa..mungkin dari situlah manusia lebih belajar utk menghargai...nk cakap org, agaknyer dulu aku pun sama. Time tengah dilamun cinta, di awang2an, zaman2 jahiliyah, aku lupa pada org sekeliling, lupa pada si pemberi nasihat, lupa pada kwn yg pernah bersama...

Alhamdulillah, dianugerahkan aku dgn kekecewaan yg mengingatkan aku semula pada org2 yg tak pernah tinggalkan aku..dan sekarang, mata pun dah semakin celik. Dan akhirnya, aku juga diberi peluang utk merasa perasaan tu. Perasaan dilupakan dan ditinggalkan oleh org2 yg aku percaya, yg aku dh anggap sebagai teman, sahabat, atau rakan...betulla org cakap, sekarang dunia balas dunia...kita buat org, esok lusa, org pulak buat kita..

Kesimpulannya, bila dh terhantuk baru nk terngadah..bila tetiba kita bercerita, gelak ketawa sama2, and keesokan harinya, minggu depannya tetiba mereka senyap tanpa khabar berita,...nak kata busy, jalan selisih bahu, tak pulak bertegur sapa macam selalu...tak terfikir pulak aku berapa kali aku terkebil-kebil tertanya-tanya apa salah aku tetiba orang menjauhkan diri??

Some of them tell me, "you have the potential to make people smile, like you, and then fall in love with you...and i'm answering them with smiling "and after that they will leave me..."

So, di kesempatan ini, aku nk say sorry pada yg pernah aku buat xtau, and yg pernah rasa aku sombong, and lupa kawan2..i'm trying so hard to be a good friend to you, and you, and you...and lets appreciate people that we have..parents, family, teman, sahabat, rakan dan kawan...

Dengan ini, saya Siti Hajar Bt Mohd Fauzi nak say thanks byk2 pada yg x pernah tinggalkan saya, sentiasa berada di sisi saya dan menerima baik buruk saya seadanya...sayang korang semua!!


-peace no war-

She said I Do....Radhiatulaina & Mohd Ali

She said, I Do......

 

 

Sorry guys, she's now officially off to the market.. :p

My childhood friend getting married, or should i said on this date, she already married?? :p

I had no expectations she will become my relatives one day...and today, seeing how happy she is with him, I rest assured she is in good hands..In Shaa Allah..

Alhamdulillah, her big days celebration going so smoothly..

 

My wishes;

- May both of u happily ever after

- May both of u have blessfull marriage until Jannah

- May Allah's blessings be upon you

Amin, Ya Rabbal Alamin..

 

So, lets enjoy the photos!!

Her Henna!!!! i'm become crazy towards this!!

Pelamin!! Cantik kan? Time ni baru siap pasang...

 

 

a few minutes before she's become Mrs Ali....

 

 

 

 

WHO'S TURN AFTER THIS??? MUAHAHAHA...
Lets pray for the best! Amin.... (^_^)

 

You broke my heart and I let you...

When you like someone it should be obvious to everyone in the vicinity that you’re making each other feel sensations you didn’t even know were possible. Electricity when you touch. Melt at their smile. You’re supposed to let the person you like know you’re into them. Drop hints. Send them “Do you like me Y/N?” texts. Otherwise, we will drive ourselves wild analyzing every text message our loves and lusts send, everything they’ve ever said, every innuendo they ever gave.

The fool-proof, human-emotion science of it all is, the more you pull away, the more we chase. Chasing after someone who doesn’t love you anymore or isn’t into you “like that” is the worst. You’re the one sitting by the phone, waiting for them to respond to a text you sent hours ago. You’re the one debating whether you should re-text them first, throwing a tantrum where you’re all, Fine. If you’re not going to text me back then I’m going to turn my phone all the way off for the rest of the day so that when you finally do decide to text me back I don’t text YOU back for hours, too. You’re the one who invites them over to “watch a movie,” the international sign for let’s make out and dry hump on the futon, and when nothing happens, you’re the one who comes away feeling like a desperate idiot. But you’re not desperate — you’re just really in-like.

You broke my heart and I let you. We were one, but somewhere, something went wrong. You stopped trying. You stopped texting me cute, funny stuff throughout the day. The sexy pics stopped. The dates stopped. You stopped and the excuses started. The writing was on the wall as they say, but I looked away from it even though I should have known better. I chased you anyway.

But why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we let people break our hearts when we always know better?

We want to feel loved — by you. It’s scary because we feel this intellectual, spiritual, emotional, and physical connection to you. And we’re lucky to ever find even two of those connections in a single person, so having all four feels like hitting the jackpot, which probably explains why the sex is so good. That’s why we keep chasing, that’s why we keep hoping. Our rational brains and BFFs tell us NO, NO, NO, but our loins and emotions tell us that you feel so good.

No matter how much our loves and likes hurt us, we always imagine that they will wake up in the middle of the night and suddenly realize what a hot titty we are, that they will come to their senses and bring us a bouquet of roses and our favorite chocolates, just like the last scene of every movie. So we keep hoping, we keep chasing. And sometimes they do come around, and if they don’t we have to learn to stop running and give it a rest. Emotions like jealousy, anger, anxiety — these are all ways our bodies tell us that something isn’t quite right. But sometimes, we want this person to like us so much that we toss all rational thought and human warning signs aside in hopes that things will be different, that one day they will come around, because you really hope they will.

I once heard in a Sex and the City episode, which is where everybody should go for relationship advice, that there can only ever be one “star” in the relationship — the person who gets tended to, celebrated and, well, chased after. The star/person being chased gets to just sit there and enjoy the adulation. But that’s not fair. There should be mutual chasing, and maybe if there were, our hearts wouldn’t get broken so often.

By Madison Moore

Pencinta yg salah setia?

Rinduu.....rindu, nak gadoh...
Jeles...jeles ke?
Hati sedang berusaha...
Currently my du'a,

"Dear Allah, please don't ever let it be..if it's not my taqdir.."

And Alhamdulillah, she's here, my companion..Syarifah Syuhaida..
Thanks syusyu..senang ckp dgn ko...sbb ko faham..sgt faham...

Lately, our conversations come with this sentences;

Me: let's go for Aussie...can't stand anymore with so many manusia2 pelik..
She: jom..!!
Me: ke kita yg pelik? Pencinta yg setia?
She: (laughing) pencinta salah yg setia..
Me: Pencinta yg salah setia la yunk...eh, mcm sedap ayat tu... (Continue laughing)
She: (keep laughing)

And we sharing the words from Kak Fynn Jamal's instagram..

"Don't fight our taqdir. Embrace it. Things you like might be things Allah knows you do not need..."

And i'm also seems to copy her Du'a for a long times ago..(sedikit edited by me)
" Ya Allah, bangkitkan aku besok dengan ruh yg baru, tutupkan hatiku dari laki2. Kerana aku sudah letih untuk disakiti..hindarilah aku dari rasa kecewa dan putus asa..lindungilah aku dari rasa cinta yg sia2 yg menjauhkan aku dariMu..Bukakan hatiku cuma untuk lelaki yg mahu menjadikan aku isterinya...kurniakan rasa cinta dihati untuk dia yg Kau pilih menjadi takdirku, Imamku, Pelindungku, dunia dan akhirat..semoga aku menjadi hambaMu yg sentiasa redha..Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.."

Aku dan Myvi...:)

Letak lah berapa banyak keta kat umah ni, yg aku reti drive tetap jugak myvi aku.. Ayah bagi kunci Harrier seminggu, seminggu lah kereta tu duk kat garaj...mak suruh anta brg naik Fortuner, aku angkut barang tu muat2kan dekat bonet and backseat myvi..sebabtu aku kedekut sket klu amim n akim nk pinjam..tayar kurang angin 500 gram aku punya risau macamla enjin myvi yg tercabut.

Even cuma myvi, inilah kawan baik aku. Susah tu nak dapat..tetiap hari buat drama hindustan depan ayah ngan mak. Alasannya, i want to be independent. Aku nak drive kereta, xnak susahkan orang. Dah 3 tahun lebih dah...Alhamdulillah, myvi masih sihat.. Tapi, ketika family lain berckp tentang kereta kegemaran, apa yg aku dpt simpulkan;

Ayah - toyota
Mak- Myvi SE
Amim & Akim - Honda
Aja @ me - Volksawagen Beetle

Hahahaha..it's my dream..tapi rasanya xkan jual myvi ni. Esok2 klu dpt pakai VB, myvi ni leh la klu nk pakai anta mak pg pasar, ambik anak amim balik sekolah ke..hehehe..

Terima Kasih Allah untuk nikmat kenderaan yg Engkau berikan kepadaku...terima kasih mak dan ayah kerana hadiah yg terlalu besar harganya ini..terima kasih myvi sebab jadi kawan baik saya...

Let's sLEep WeLL!!!

Saya ada benda nak share....
Impian setiapkali bangun pagi pada hari2 persekolahan atau time ada kelas...
Aku tak tau plak korang, tapi aku punya hasrat yg sama sejak 20 tahun yg lepas..

Setiapkali bangun pagi nk pegi sekolah atau kelas, perkara yg saya akan automatik akan fikir,
" ngantuknyer...balik sekolah / habis kelas nanti, aku nak tidur puas2..."

Dan habis je kelas, mata akan automatik segar bugar...dan mcm terlupa plak impian bangun pagi...hahahahahaha! Esok2 mcmtu jugak, beria nawaitu nk tdo, last2 hapah...tv, shopping, main game, kemain bulat lagi mata...

Why ar? Beria2 nk tido, smpai masa tak nak tdo pulak...hahahahaha...
Google, and i really interested with this quote;

" dear sleep, i know we had a problems when i was younger...but i love you know.."

Sounds funny rite? From the day we born, we only have about 5 years to sleep well..and after that u will find how life is so complicated bcoz u will miss sleepy thousand times more than your boyfriend or girlfriend..this is my opinion lor..

So lets try to practice this; cara Rasulullah SAW masuk tidur..seawal selepas Isyak dan bangun pada 1/3 malam..dlm lingkungan pukul 3 ke pukul 5...( sebelum masuk waktu imsak dan subuh)

Hitungan malam bermula pada waktu maghrib dan tamat malam apabila bermula subuh. Sepertiga dari tempoh masa itu bererti sepertiga akhir ketika menghampiri subuh. Hadis menyebutkan sepertiga akhir, anggaran antara lebih kurang pukul 3 pagi, kerana Nabi bangun pada waktu itu dan bangun shalat sehingga dekat dengan waktu subuh dan kemudian Nabi menutupi dengan witir, dan kemudian Nabi berbaring sehingga azan subuh. Berbaring ini termasuk dalam sunnah dan bangun apabila masuk waktu subuh.
( dipetik dari kata2 Ustaz Fathul Bari Mat Jahya)

“Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu Mengetahui bahawa engkau bangun (mengerjakan sembahyang) kurang dari dua pertiga malam, ada pula separuhnya dan sepertiganya.” (al-Muzammil: 20)

Memudahkan Bangun Solat Malam

-Sebelum masuk tidur, berniat ingin melakukan Solat Tahajjud.
-Menjauhkan diri daripada perbuatan maksiat.
-Bersederhana makan dan minum pada waktu siang.
-Membaca ayat-ayat Al-Quran.

Rasulullah SAW bersabda: “Sesiapa yang hendak tidur dan berniat untuk bangkit bagi mengerjakan Solat Sunat Tahajjud, kemudian tidurnya terlajak sampai ke pagi, maka dicatat niatnya itu sebagai satu pahala, manakala tidurnya pula dikira sebagai kurniaan Allah yang diberikan kepadanya.” (Riwayat al-Nasa’i dan Ibnu Majah r.a.)

Ok, semoga saya IstiQamah...Amin...In Shaa Allah.. :)

It means a WAR!!!

Our first argument...hmm..hmmm...hmmmmmmm....
We are in a war!! Bukan Malaysia, tapi saya!

I'm supposed to feel nothing rite..but why suddenly i feel sad...i hate to feel like that..really hate this feeling! Really hate thousand times!

Siti Hajar, Don't ever dream to have that feeling! Keep reminding myself..don't ever and ever...
But suddenly i'm crying...uwaaaa.....it's not fair...really not fair...i won't do that again..will try not to 'open' even a little bit..

He just say the truth..why i'm so upset...this is not me..(tula hajar, dah ckp dah, jangan, ko ngengada jugak nk try, sekarang hamekaw!)

And what i'm doing rite now;
- counting how many male friend that i still contact until now..wah! Not more than three?!!! So, we are the same!!
- try not to bbm him...(nyampah)
- cuba memujuk hati..he completely like him...please heart, don't be...u still feel the pain rite...don't be...please...

AnD sUDdEnLy,
miss syusyu so much...(she's quite bz rite now)...

- sedarkan aku sekiranya aku terleka, dan terlupa tentang kepahitan semalam -